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leveling up / jul 2019

the feeling of leveling up is a surreal experience. it happens when many facets of your life are going well simultaneously, better than you had imagined. you may have stumbled onto a situation that led to other positive downstream effects. you may be in situations thinking “This is too good to be true.” you may even be in situations you never believed would happen, but did anyway in the best and healthiest possible way.

knowing that you are in the midst of leveling up is like how a historian knows when history is unfolding in real time. you just feel it – perhaps so viscerally that you cannot stop smiling when you sit down and think about what is happening in your life right now. fucks given and authenticity over timethis is how i have been feeling. i stumbled onto a new set of friends who are on that next stage in life: kind, smart, ambitious, profoundly successful already, and masterminds of career positioning people. some of these people are definitely lifelong friends i can grow with. i also joined a new group of friends from my climbing / boxing gym who will be perfect for hanging locally in Oakland. i have been intentional about health and fitness – working out 5x a week and eating just enough. i also am working on my prerequisite course for a UX bootcamp which will start mid-August. dating is going well (but i won’t get into specifics here). my relationship with my immediate family is evolving as time progresses. i’ve healed from a few heartbreaking events and am now more resilient and sharper because of it. life is good.

in light of all the good that keeps coming, i decided to make the final sacrifice of deleting Instagram from my phone and remaining offline for a long time (possibly indefinitely). it is a wild and challenging experience for me being that it serves as a prime creative outlet, however i believe that it is precisely what needs to happen so i go deeper into my more useful and fulfilling ventures. after all, if you want massive change, you have to leave behind those habits that no longer serve you. a friend reminded me to keep a regular input of news and culture, so i do not become siloed in my own personal development. sound advice.

where do we go from here?

without instagram, i will focus on documenting my journey on this platform, this blog. i will be dipping back into making video content and posting it on youtube. although, these will be my top four priorities in the coming months:

  1. focusing on what work i put in every day rather than what i once was / endured. that doesn’t mean jack shit anymore.
  2. growing an obsession with ux design. i need to be in love with it, foster it, and do what people are not willing to do.
  3. give back to those at home. i can do better in putting in effort to my home loved ones so they know i care.
  4. unlocking subconscious patterns that no longer serve me. renovating my habits to be those of one that succeeds at xyz things.

it’s going to be intense.

thank you for joining me on this journey.

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When you decide your life is your own

“The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours. It is an amazing journey, and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins.”
– Bob Moawad

When you choose to uphold your independence, you begin to live a different life. You begin to feel more powerful as you make decisions on your behalf for your own welfare. You enjoy your own presence, look forward to alone time, and possibly prefer it most nights. You do whatever you want without supervision and craft your own life.

Independence includes externally from parents, partners, and toxic relationships. It also means internally from your inner demons.

Once you own your worth, you become free to live to the fullest at the highest frequency.

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Only you can fully understand you

Only you can fully understand you.

There is simultaneous melancholy and joy in this statement.

Melancholy because you will never be entirely understood. No one will know all parts of you. Even if you try to expose someone to the various facets of your life, only you will fully experience the life you live. On that vein, expecting someone else to fully understand you is ludicrous.

But there is also great joy in knowing that you are your own. Joy in the sense that you have complete independence. You are the owner, the driver, and the purveyor of your own happiness. Hold this with a sense of pride.

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Art is letting out your inner child

Art is not meant to be filtered, unless you’re editing.
However, many people don’t get that far.
Their inner critic hinders their creativity so they don’t create at all.

When I create, I think of a quote by Ernest Hemingway.

Write drunk. Edit sober.

Tapping into your creativity is you allowing yourself to be a child again, allow yourself to play and throw colors on the canvas. Children often don’t have a filter. They are simply free to be.

Allow yourself to be that child. Worry about filtering when it’s time to clean and polish.

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How do you make yourself smarter?

Ask questions. Listen. Learn. Analyze. Connect. Then ask more questions.

Do so with careful thought and humility. Know that you don’t know everything.

It’s even okay to not know what you don’t know. Just ask, absorb, and analyze until things make sense. If you ask considerately, people will be thrilled to share their knowledge.

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